Saturday, September 29, 2007: desire.
May The Words of My Mouth
May the words of my mouth
And the meditations of my heart
Be pleasing to you
Pleasing to you
May the words of my mouth
And the meditations of my heart
Be pleasing to you
My God
You're my rock and my redeemer
You're the reason that i sing
I desire to be a blessing in Your eyes
Every hour and every moment
Lord i want to be Your servant
I desire to be a blessing in Your eyes
this song is taken from psalm 19:14. i came across this when i was preparing for crossroads tmr, and i was reminded of this song..
alot of recent events made me think about my relationship with God, how its been suffering, how i have been so conflicted by what i want and what God wants. i guess thats the struggle i go through everyday. i think its already become 2nd nature to just do whatever i want. and thats pretty much because i think i'm not in tune with God.
something made me see the extremity of choosing self over God, and it woke me up. i think i'm pretty scared of what can happen to me.
i feel this song describes what i want for my life. that every hour and every moment, that i will desire to be a servant of God, not a servant to the world.
there seems like so much i have to do to get back on track with God. i have to remember to read my bible, i have to remember to pray, i have to try my best to serve God in church, i need to open my ears to listen to His voice, i have to obey His commands, i have to love everyone. all these have tos and need tos.. reminds me of mary and martha actually. i think i've got the martha syndrome..
maybe christianity is not all about doing things to get back into the flow of things, to get in sync with the godly people, speak their lingo, have their dedication. maybe christianity is about just surrendering our lives into God's hands and just trusting in His plans and timing.
a shout of praise.
11:30 AM
